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Facing a screen void of words in worriment,
Racing with time tangled in puzzlement,
Understanding the world is hard when understanding myself feels like punishment,
So what do I do when I am consumed by my predicament?
Tranquil is all I seek but tranquil is all that is absent,
Rage is not escape but it chains me in disappointment,
After all those time everything I wanted was atonement,
To reunite with my muse is my greatest nonfulfillment,
I fought my tears as I struggled to be patient,
Overcoming this stumbling block is a commitment,
Not achievable when depression is imminent.

- Top 100 entry for Englishjer's 100/100 Anonymous Challenge 2015